I know I am spoiled for getting an email every week. But these last couple of weeks Jake has been talking about maybe not being able to email during his mission at some point. I started to really get anxiety over this and told him so. He just told me not to worry and he would write me and email me as soon as he can. In the last email I got from him he said if you don't get an email please don't get down. Just know I will try my hardest to get them to you because I know they make you happy and I want to keep you happy. So Thursday morning (the latest time he could possibly send and email on his p-day) I roll over in bed and prayed an email would be there. I hesitantly pushed the refresh button but I just had a feeling and knew there wasn't going to be an email. Sure enough...there wasn't! But the amazing part was I didn't get down. This was the first week I had not heard anything from him since he has been gone and I was fine!? I thought there was something totally wrong with me!
Then I got this in the mail....yes it is send to Jake but showed up back at my house! Sent all the way back in April! Well I thought for sure the tears would come after this showed up but still nothing!
I think my friend Sydney ( Through the Stars) is rubbing off on me with keeping a good attitude and having the right perspective! Still no tears and only more prays for Jake during his busy weeks. I guess I will have to save up the tears for another week! :)
wow you are amazing! i totally look up to you. look how far you have come!! you are such a great girl and although emails every week are such a blessing, you don't need them to make you happy. you are one of the happiest people i know! even when you are yourself ;) keep it up girl, you're doing great and growing so much. i love you!!
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