Count Down Jar

When Jake left my mom made me this really cute count down jar. It had 731 M&M's in it. I took one out for every day Jake has been gone...

 ....and now it barely has a single layer left!! I can't believe it!!

The unthinkable has been thought!

I'm just a little behind in the blogging life..... But it has happened!! I don't know how but Jake has been gone a WHOLE YEAR!! I honestly don't know where this year has gone. Some how it has been the fastest year of my life which I feel so thankful for! I have grown so much this year and feel like I have reached many goals that I never thought I would be able to especially on my own. I have never felt more close to Jake which is another thing that I didn't think was possible, but it has happened! I'm not going to lie it hasn't been all super easy and I have had my moments but overall this year has been so great! I truly hope that this next year goes just as great and even faster!!  

My great mother gave me a year present. A camel that said "you've made it over the hump, NOW ENDURE TO THE END! 2 Nephi 31:20" and a little magnet that said I love my missionary! I loved it!

I couldn't celebrate alone so me and sydney went to Chili's to celebrate making it a year! It was so much fun spending time with her and of course talking about our boys!

Birthday time

My wonderful friend sydney had the great idea to celebrate Jake's birthday, make a cake, and do some things that me and Jake used to do! So we did just that...

Made A Cake

 and of course sang and ate it

 then we jammed out and sang at the top of our lungs on the say to "our spot"

 It was really freezing but it was fun to go there again and have sydney there with me

 .....where is Jake!?

I don't know...But I LOVE HIM!

Thank you sydney for such a fun adventure!

What an old Fart!!

Happy Birfday!!!

It was Jake's Birthday the day after Christmas and I was lucky enough to be able to say Happy Birthday to him on the phone! Then my amazing friend Sydney made it a great day to celebrate!

We made a brownie cake and enjoyed it together. Then we went and jammed out in the car as we drove to mine and Jake's spot! It was a great way to spend Jake's birthday thinking of him! Thank you Sydney for the great time and celebrating with me!

Happy 20th Birthday Elder Jacob Rose! 

Comfort from a distance

Yes the other night I was feeling a little lonely and of course missing Jake. I decided to spray his hoodie (again) with his cologne and put on some on his things while getting ready for bed. I just can't get over his smell and being in his things just gives me comfort!! :)

Worth the wait

For this whole last transfer e-mails were very scarce. If there was an email it was very short and always left me wanting to know more about what he was doing. I started to feel for the first time since he has been gone the distance between us. I got...discouraged. But I know it was only Satan working on me and thanks to great friends who care and listen and know exactly what to say I got out of my little slump and found the strength again. Then today came around (Jake's P-day) and I got a very amazing long email! It hit the spot! I don't know how else to say it but every single word in there was just perfect! I would post high lights from it but well...then the whole email would be on here! Also his big email just shows what an amazing young man he is. The spirit was so strong and his light just shines right through! His willingness and desire to serve and bring the gospel to the people of Tonga is just so over powering. I can't even explain how I feel about him, there are no words. Driving tonight I just yelled out my window and wanted to tell the world the "I love Jacob"! Tingling filled my body and there were butterflies in my stomach. It was well worth the wait!

Music Speaks to the heart

So lonely, missing you each day.
I pray if only for a moment I could see your smiling face,
you’d take away this emptiness inside of me.
But, I’ll be strong until we meet.
I miss you, long to hear you laugh again.
To kiss you, let you know that life begins when I’m by your side,
holding you tight.
You give me strength to brave it all, faith and hope when darkness starts to fall.
When the wind blows cold and threatening, nobody’s there to comfort me.
Someone, somewhere, hear my pleas.
Until then please let me know how long ‘til I hear your heart singing that sweet song.
Will I be there to sing along in harmony, just you and me?
The music stops when you’re not here, but my heart sings until you’re near to me.
Oh, can you even hear my cries that call your name beneath the stars tonight?
When the wind blows cold and threatening, nobody’s there to comfort me.
Somehow, someone hear my pleas.
Until then I hope you know I need you to chase away the clouds so I can see you.
And run through fields of flowers like we used to do, just we two.
Hold onto the memories until that day I’m holding you again.
Good-night my friend, good-night.
— Tiny’s Song [How Lonely]