Birthday time

My wonderful friend sydney had the great idea to celebrate Jake's birthday, make a cake, and do some things that me and Jake used to do! So we did just that...

Made A Cake

 and of course sang and ate it

 then we jammed out and sang at the top of our lungs on the say to "our spot"

 It was really freezing but it was fun to go there again and have sydney there with me

 .....where is Jake!?

I don't know...But I LOVE HIM!

Thank you sydney for such a fun adventure!

What an old Fart!!

Happy Birfday!!!

It was Jake's Birthday the day after Christmas and I was lucky enough to be able to say Happy Birthday to him on the phone! Then my amazing friend Sydney made it a great day to celebrate!

We made a brownie cake and enjoyed it together. Then we went and jammed out in the car as we drove to mine and Jake's spot! It was a great way to spend Jake's birthday thinking of him! Thank you Sydney for the great time and celebrating with me!

Happy 20th Birthday Elder Jacob Rose! 

Comfort from a distance

Yes the other night I was feeling a little lonely and of course missing Jake. I decided to spray his hoodie (again) with his cologne and put on some on his things while getting ready for bed. I just can't get over his smell and being in his things just gives me comfort!! :)

Worth the wait

For this whole last transfer e-mails were very scarce. If there was an email it was very short and always left me wanting to know more about what he was doing. I started to feel for the first time since he has been gone the distance between us. I got...discouraged. But I know it was only Satan working on me and thanks to great friends who care and listen and know exactly what to say I got out of my little slump and found the strength again. Then today came around (Jake's P-day) and I got a very amazing long email! It hit the spot! I don't know how else to say it but every single word in there was just perfect! I would post high lights from it but well...then the whole email would be on here! Also his big email just shows what an amazing young man he is. The spirit was so strong and his light just shines right through! His willingness and desire to serve and bring the gospel to the people of Tonga is just so over powering. I can't even explain how I feel about him, there are no words. Driving tonight I just yelled out my window and wanted to tell the world the "I love Jacob"! Tingling filled my body and there were butterflies in my stomach. It was well worth the wait!

Music Speaks to the heart

So lonely, missing you each day.
I pray if only for a moment I could see your smiling face,
you’d take away this emptiness inside of me.
But, I’ll be strong until we meet.
I miss you, long to hear you laugh again.
To kiss you, let you know that life begins when I’m by your side,
holding you tight.
You give me strength to brave it all, faith and hope when darkness starts to fall.
When the wind blows cold and threatening, nobody’s there to comfort me.
Someone, somewhere, hear my pleas.
Until then please let me know how long ‘til I hear your heart singing that sweet song.
Will I be there to sing along in harmony, just you and me?
The music stops when you’re not here, but my heart sings until you’re near to me.
Oh, can you even hear my cries that call your name beneath the stars tonight?
When the wind blows cold and threatening, nobody’s there to comfort me.
Somehow, someone hear my pleas.
Until then I hope you know I need you to chase away the clouds so I can see you.
And run through fields of flowers like we used to do, just we two.
Hold onto the memories until that day I’m holding you again.
Good-night my friend, good-night.
— Tiny’s Song [How Lonely]

What A Week

I know I am spoiled for getting an email every week. But these last  couple of weeks Jake has been talking about maybe not being able to email during his mission at some point. I started to really get anxiety over this and told him so. He just told me not to worry and he would write me and email me as soon as he can. In the last email I got from him he said if you don't get an email please don't get down. Just know I will try my hardest to get them to you because I know they make you happy and I want to keep you happy. So Thursday morning (the latest time he could possibly send and email on his p-day) I roll over in bed and prayed an email would be there. I hesitantly pushed the refresh button but I just had a feeling and knew there wasn't going to be an email. Sure enough...there wasn't! But the amazing part was I didn't get down. This was the first week I had not heard anything from him since he has been gone and I was fine!? I thought there was something totally wrong with me! 

Then I got this in the mail....yes it is send to Jake but showed up back at my house! Sent all the way back in April! Well I thought for sure the tears would come after this showed up but still nothing!

I think my friend Sydney ( Through the Stars) is rubbing off on me with keeping a good attitude and having the right perspective! Still no tears and only more prays for Jake during his busy weeks. I guess I will have to save up the tears for another week! :)

6 months!

ALREADY!?

I'm not complaining at all but I can't believe it has already been six months! Time has gone by so fast it feels like maybe three...it is so wonderful!

Two and a half months in the MTC

Two phone calls

Three and a half months in Tonga

becoming an expert at the language

5 baptisms

many miles walked

and many people touched

I couldn't be more proud of Jake and all the hard work he is doing!

I feel like I have already grown so much since he has been gone. I have grown up a lot, learned to love doing things by myself and to get through things on my own. I have strengthened my relationship with other people that I couldn't have gotten this far without.  I am thankful for this experience for both of us to learn and grow both together and individually! I can't wait to see what the adventures the next six months brings us both...Bring it on!