Comfort from a distance

Yes the other night I was feeling a little lonely and of course missing Jake. I decided to spray his hoodie (again) with his cologne and put on some on his things while getting ready for bed. I just can't get over his smell and being in his things just gives me comfort!! :)

Worth the wait

For this whole last transfer e-mails were very scarce. If there was an email it was very short and always left me wanting to know more about what he was doing. I started to feel for the first time since he has been gone the distance between us. I got...discouraged. But I know it was only Satan working on me and thanks to great friends who care and listen and know exactly what to say I got out of my little slump and found the strength again. Then today came around (Jake's P-day) and I got a very amazing long email! It hit the spot! I don't know how else to say it but every single word in there was just perfect! I would post high lights from it but well...then the whole email would be on here! Also his big email just shows what an amazing young man he is. The spirit was so strong and his light just shines right through! His willingness and desire to serve and bring the gospel to the people of Tonga is just so over powering. I can't even explain how I feel about him, there are no words. Driving tonight I just yelled out my window and wanted to tell the world the "I love Jacob"! Tingling filled my body and there were butterflies in my stomach. It was well worth the wait!

Music Speaks to the heart

So lonely, missing you each day.
I pray if only for a moment I could see your smiling face,
you’d take away this emptiness inside of me.
But, I’ll be strong until we meet.
I miss you, long to hear you laugh again.
To kiss you, let you know that life begins when I’m by your side,
holding you tight.
You give me strength to brave it all, faith and hope when darkness starts to fall.
When the wind blows cold and threatening, nobody’s there to comfort me.
Someone, somewhere, hear my pleas.
Until then please let me know how long ‘til I hear your heart singing that sweet song.
Will I be there to sing along in harmony, just you and me?
The music stops when you’re not here, but my heart sings until you’re near to me.
Oh, can you even hear my cries that call your name beneath the stars tonight?
When the wind blows cold and threatening, nobody’s there to comfort me.
Somehow, someone hear my pleas.
Until then I hope you know I need you to chase away the clouds so I can see you.
And run through fields of flowers like we used to do, just we two.
Hold onto the memories until that day I’m holding you again.
Good-night my friend, good-night.
— Tiny’s Song [How Lonely]

What A Week

I know I am spoiled for getting an email every week. But these last  couple of weeks Jake has been talking about maybe not being able to email during his mission at some point. I started to really get anxiety over this and told him so. He just told me not to worry and he would write me and email me as soon as he can. In the last email I got from him he said if you don't get an email please don't get down. Just know I will try my hardest to get them to you because I know they make you happy and I want to keep you happy. So Thursday morning (the latest time he could possibly send and email on his p-day) I roll over in bed and prayed an email would be there. I hesitantly pushed the refresh button but I just had a feeling and knew there wasn't going to be an email. Sure enough...there wasn't! But the amazing part was I didn't get down. This was the first week I had not heard anything from him since he has been gone and I was fine!? I thought there was something totally wrong with me! 

Then I got this in the mail....yes it is send to Jake but showed up back at my house! Sent all the way back in April! Well I thought for sure the tears would come after this showed up but still nothing!

I think my friend Sydney ( Through the Stars) is rubbing off on me with keeping a good attitude and having the right perspective! Still no tears and only more prays for Jake during his busy weeks. I guess I will have to save up the tears for another week! :)

6 months!

ALREADY!?

I'm not complaining at all but I can't believe it has already been six months! Time has gone by so fast it feels like maybe three...it is so wonderful!

Two and a half months in the MTC

Two phone calls

Three and a half months in Tonga

becoming an expert at the language

5 baptisms

many miles walked

and many people touched

I couldn't be more proud of Jake and all the hard work he is doing!

I feel like I have already grown so much since he has been gone. I have grown up a lot, learned to love doing things by myself and to get through things on my own. I have strengthened my relationship with other people that I couldn't have gotten this far without.  I am thankful for this experience for both of us to learn and grow both together and individually! I can't wait to see what the adventures the next six months brings us both...Bring it on!

Dating

Over the past few months my dating life has kind of changed. I have a date once a week. Sometimes I don't know when it is coming. The hours of my dating life are not the "usual" times it may be in the afternoon, middle of the night or early in the morning. Sometimes I don't get much sleep waiting for my date because of these odd hours, but it is always worth it! In these dates sometimes there are tears, most of them laughs and all of them love. After these dates I always feel closer with my date and so in love! Through the cables of the computer, clear across the seas all the way to me, I always look forward for my inbox to show "new message" and know that my date can begin!

Sweet and Simple Love

I was driving home from class the other night with the windows down, enjoying the nice weather and watching the sun set to my right. Of course love songs after dark was on and I am a sucker for love songs! As I was singing along at the top of my lungs a tear slide down my cheek. I stopped and just listened to the words and enjoyed how I was feeling. The peace that I felt in my heart. The simple love. 

Christmas in June

I love getting my weekly emails! It gives me something to look forward to and it is so great!! This week Jake told me he actually got something from me...not just something...A PACKAGE! It was the first thing he has gotten from me since he left to Tonga three months ago! You know how on Christmas you get a present for someone and it doesn't matter if you get anything or what you get all you care about is giving them their present and seeing there reaction!? Well that is how I feel right now! To know that he is actually getting things from me makes me want to be crazy and write him a million more times! haha :) Happy Christmas to Jake!

Until We Meet Again

The love of my life and best friend left on a two year LDS mission to Tonga. Saying goodbye and him leaving was probably one of the hardest thing I have ever gone through in my life.  We did almost everything together. Went through great and hard times. Had many laughs and cries together and I have felt so blessed to have him in my life. He has taught me so much and has been there for me every step of the way even when people have walked out on me. He has made me so incredibly happy and has served me with all of his heart. He probably has the biggest heart of anyone that I know! I just truly feel so blessed to have him in my life! On Wednesday January 5, 2011 he left onto a new adventure. Being a  missionary of the lord and working so hard to learn Tongan and touch peoples hearts and share the gospel to them. I am so proud of him and the things that he is accomplishing. He is such an amazing missionary! He is a great example to me and makes me want to do better on the adventures that I am on also. He has changed my life for the better and continues to do so! I love him with all my heart!!! :)

Saying goodbye....For Now!

Here are some videos of Jake's last goodbyes! 

Once Upon A Time...The Shortened Version!

The Greatest Story Ever Told of Jake And Jenna! It all started sophomore year at Davis High School in the famous lunch room. He saw her from across the crowded room and "his world was changed."  Time had passed and the young girl was oblivious till a dozen roses on the door step was an answer to her prayers! They then began there journey, spending every second they could together. From their first date, all the dances, the kisses, the tears, the laughs and the I love you's the rest is history. One day they will be back together again and can finally reach their Happily Ever After! 

Getting Started!

So...how do you really start a blog? I guess an introduction is a good place. I am Jenna Harris! I started this blog to get a little sappy about my life that is now lacking a little love. I will share my whole story later, but for now I will just say the love of my life left on an LDS mission for two years to Tonga. He has now been out for almost 6 months and i figured it was time I finally made blog to share our story! Right now I am going to school trying to get into the dental hygiene program and working at an orthodontics office. Some fun random facts about me... 

1.  I LOVE to laugh! Anyone who knows my laugh always tends to make fun of it, I get a chipmunk, machine gun, and a hyena. But it doesn't stop me! :)

2.  I have recently learned that I have a muscle disformity, but I wouldn't have it any other way. 

3. I would rather sing in front of a million people then get up and talk in front of five. If I am not talking (which is very rare) I am singing!

4.  The relationships I have with people mean the world to me. I HATE when people are mad at me and I would do anything for a friend in need! 

5.  I am very emotional. I cry when i'm happy, sad, mad, frustrated or stressed. I cry during biggest looser...it get pretty bad sometimes! My excuse is my eyes are just very close to my heart. 

6.  Ever since I was young I fought for what I wanted. When I was three I hit my sister over 

the head with the claw side of the hammer. She wouldn't let me color.

7. I am a huge list person. I love making lists and planning things out! When I get to cross something off my list i feel so accomplished. 

MORE TO COME....